.G.R.A.V.I.T.Y.....t.e.l.l..m.e. // freeFALL diary v1.0

Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Mood: contented

Chi Hi ^^ Broken Pieces update ^^ *hums merrily* It was rather good actually ^^ Yup waaay good. Sigh only two more chaps??? THen it will be .. over U.U hopefully then Linay will remember the story she basically abandonned at the best part.

Hmmm... well.. its amazing how bad I'm doing in English, my usual favorite subject. It used to be my favorite subject. Mrs. Tenney i miss your class!!!! T_T sigh.. i hope my mom doesnt kill me. I'm finally back on track with everything i think u.u It's not fair!!!!

Life is very confusing. Well duh we all knew that! But ya *sigh*

OO gosh i hope my mom doesn't ground me again!!! O its sooo not fair T_T

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 09:05 a.m.

Sunday, February 15, 2004
Mood: bleeeh

Well. This week has been... horrible. No sleep. I've been having odd dreams too. Perhaps we should bless the house *raises eyebrows* well we'd have to clean first.

Ok now let me describle before mentioned odd dreams. Well the first one was on monday. I dreamed that i was lying in bed to tired to sleep. And i completely couldn't move cuz i was that tired... so i just was bleeh.. Then my mom came to wake me up..actually wake me up.. and then i tried to stand up to get off of my bed and my legs really didnt work.. i had to slide down my poster to get off the bed. Dream 2: I was sleeping when someone really roughly shook me awake. I got up and looked around and then went back to sleep cuz no one was there. Then once again my mom woke me up. So i guess these dreams have just been really strange cuz i couldn't decide if they were real or ya just dreams. BUt it must be the lack of sleep cuz i had other plain creepy, scary dreams.

well.. i guess i don't have too mcuh more to say.. well i prolly do but just can't think of it now ^^

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 02:54 p.m.

Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Mood: Maa maa...

Well, i can't say taht i'm really really good. Cuz i'm just better. ^^ It's kind of weird. I had a really bad morning and stuff. Then during mock trial i suddenly felt better. I don't know why but yaa!!

During lunch Jason--the senior one in our japanese class-- he said that during the club period he said that he prayed for students. He told Isaac that even for me ^^ Well maybe thas why i feel better??? I don't know. That's kinda cool if it's true. But ya i feel better now ^^ a bit any way.. ok well gotta play flute for now... be back soon.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 4:14 p.m.

Monday, February 9, 2004
Mood: *cries*

It's really weird.... i noticed that anime and stuff seems to be fading from my life.. replaced by who knows what. I guess music. Yes singing my guts out... I'm just totally out of it. I dont know.. just not happy....

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 09:39 p.m.

Tuesday, February 4, 2004
Mood: blaahh...

Hnnn... Canny is sick *bleehh* Thas not good. But i am going to school. Canny wants to shoot. ^^ yup yup! So i will take all of my many many many vitamins.... like a handful or to. Then i will curl up well noo... i have to do asian history. *sulk sulk* It shouldn't be too hard.

Well today we learned that we can no longer call Matt his usual nicknames... ie.. inusenpai, inu-chan, inu no oniichan, koinu-kun... dog.. not a good thing to call people.. so i suggest u stop or everyone's gonna flip ^^ that would be funny though....

Seishirou... it's soo strange.. go read his little sub story in book 16. it's eerie... very eerie but his mommy is pretty and he's a pretty good looking boy. OOO and Chiharu from GGG is really cool too. ^^ i like him. i have enough space in my heart for anime characters as well as reall people.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 8:09 a.m.

Saturday, January 31, 2004
Mood: uurgh

Heyo it's been a few days huh?? ya.... right now .. i feel kinda crappy. My nose is stuffy and i still have to do my english homework. God english is stupid.

Omg!! on sunday we went to kapiolani to shoot!!! it was sooo much fun!! I didn't shoot anyone either. Honestly it was super fun. i never realized just how much fun it is. shooting has been on my mind for the last two days. Almost every spare thought has been taken up by kyudo. I think i could actually be pretty good. Maybe not as good as Mizue but not bad anyway.

OOO and i met a new guy... from Girl Got Game. Not a real guy ^_~ duh... His name is Chiharu and he plays basketball!! REally super kyute and funny. A nice guy that tries to act tough. Soo after Kyo and morgan i claim chiharu. REMEMBE THAT GIRLS ^_~ lol

Oh gosh i feel super crappy.. mayb i'l beg to stay home... mom never lets me stay home unless i'm dying... but i really feel yucky..T_T

The funeral was kind of sad. That cousin didn't really have a happy life. But we did go to a party and taht was pretty fun. My mom's cousin David (i think thas his name) smiles just as much as me... if not more 0.0 Thas pretty interesting.

I still have to turn in my soldiers form.. i love to sing but i'm still scared i guess.

ook well english time.. unless i can convince m mom how sick i feel before bebop starts.... lol but i dont really wanna miss school.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 11:44 p.m.

Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Mood: ^^

Hey! Wells.. Today we watched a chinese movie. I guess it was pretty good. The singing was pretty with the exception of those suuper high notes that they hit with the heavy vibrato... heavy vibrato... very heavy.

Wooo hoo!! guess what i got an A on my group math test. ^^ yea!! I need to well on my test on friday. I better get all my school work back together though. I can't let myself get lazy ne?

Tonight I got my new gi and hakama set. 107 dollars. Not too bad if i do say. I guess i'll get kake too. Might as well. Al got a few new bows too. It's kinda sad.... i've been doing this for how long?? Several months ne?? and my body still isnt used to this. u.u Need to practice more.

OOO super cool-- my feet didn't go numb at all during mokuso!! thas cool.

I had to shoot from halfway tonight. That was... a shock. Yup, i think i must have looked shocked too. Well, i didn't shoot anyone which was a good thing. ^^ Not thaaaaat bad...

Ok well... gnight!

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 9:50 p.m.

Sunday, January 25, 2004
Mood: *pace pace* slightly .. spasdic?

Gack!! I feel stupid! i think i'm having withdrawls. Talking withdrawls. I haven't really talked to anyone all weekend... @_@ And i feel like pacing!! i'm such a psycho.

Hnnnn....

Well... i don't know.. i want to join soldiers of light.. kinda... But i don't want to fill out the form. I don't want to give them an answer that's not good enough. Meaning it's supposed to be all christian but what if i'm not good enough. u.u Know what i mean right? It's one of those not good enough things.

Well, tomorrow we have a fieldtrip!!!! yeahhh!!!! go read my xanga... well mayb not... it doesnt say much yet.....

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 06:33 p.m.

Saturday, January 24, 2004
Mood: *shrugs*

I have to clean. That sucks but oh well. I didnt do anything today. Nope nothing at all. Just laid around.

I have to wash my class shirt... well duh... but it still smells like axe. We have to wear them on monday too.

hnnn... maybe i'm psycho... naw.. i'm at a hundred one again... T_T ha ha oh well. It's my own fault. I can't blame anyone. Should exercise more. Or i could just not eat. ^_~ naw thas no good either.

My life is so monotonous. I have the same routine every week. Time passes a lot differently from when you're little. It just passes us by quickly without any change. I want something to change!!!!!! School is so boring. Home is so boring! I want to go somewhere else for a while.

it's frustrating. Life that is. Yeah it is. ... btw BROKEN PIECES UPDATE!!!! YEAHHH!!!

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 5:20 p.m.

Friday, january 23, 2004
Mood: chii ^^

Hey!! Well today was usual. Like everyday. Kendo was fun. Matt and Randy made us do kirikaeshi... and we didnt really know how. I thought that i was pretty bad. You notice all of the things you do wrong.

Matt did this funky attempt on do with a three sixty spin at the end. It looked super cool but i dont know wat it was. lol

It's been two weeks i think since i got my tetanus shot and guess what? There's still a mark and a like hard spot. Yeck. It still looks like a bruise. I hope it's supposed to be like that.

Field trip on monday!!!!!! Yeaah!!!! China town here i come ^_~ Mom wants me to buy her food...

hey what do u think of this "You are guided by water. You are generally calm and peaceful, but you can be very destructive without even realizing it." It;s wat u got one the test from Ash's page the... umm...What force is your soul quiz.

I'm super tired... i'll talk more later

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 10:49 p.m.

Thursday, January 22,2004
Mood: blaah...

Oh God, i'm soo bloody tired. I wish i could just go to sleep for a long time and not wake up. I took a nap earlier but i'm still tired and i have to do my homework too. Damn....

Well, i failed my physics test. Hopefully it wont be tooooo bad.

Homecoming was pretty bad. Really really sad actually. The pepper squad was pretty good. It was the rest of us.

I'm soooo tired!! and so stupid too. Why don't i just go to sleep? Yea well homework. hnnnnn...

And maybe i should just not eat tomorrow T_T i ate everything today. God i must have gained so much weight in one day. It's funny. Sometimes i completely find food disgusting. Really gross.. But then i get hungry. ^^

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 09 57 p.m.

Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Mood: almost focused ^^

Today school wasn't that bad. It was quite normal. After school I ran/walked to the park with Matt and Christian. Not too bad either. Although i am really stupid. Running up the Pali without shoes is really stupid. Well running bare foot period is stupid. I actually didnt rip up my feet at all only the outer edge of my right foot is a little sore. ^^ Maybe i run on the outside of my foot. I think when i do akuriashi i step on the same part of my foot. I wonder if that's bad? *ponders* oh well.

At the park i got to play on the swings for a bit. That was fun until it got a little scary because the top bar would move everytime i came back or forth. After that i got attacked by a water fountain. There are soo many mosquitos there!

Kyudo tonight was really good. I tried to focus more ^_~ it worked to some extent. I suppose it did because it was a lot better than last week. A lot better. There were a whole lot of new potential students. I was listening to Mizue's speech thingy while i was practicing subiki. She said that when she shoots she doesnt see the target at all. The only thing she focuses on is perfect form. No wonder she's so good.

Seiza... don't mind it now. I suppose it's taken a while to get used to but it's ok.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I think i'm seeing some things in a different light. My friends, my surroundings, myself. They're changing slowly. I don't really know if i'm right but that's what it seems like now.

O gosh i'm soo tired. But i have... English and math homework. Gosh tuesday schedule really really sucks this semester. English then math then physics. Yup no fun. A dose of English so early in the morning. -_-.. not looking forward to that but.....*takes a deep breathe* i'm supposed to respect authority even if i dont think she deserves it.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 09:30 p.m.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004
Mood: *snort snort* LMAO!!!

Oh my God!!!! American Idol!!! WAhahahhahaha!!! THat was hillarious! I really give our three friends credit; i'd have died of laughter a long time ago. Honest to God, these people really think they can all sing! *snort* I don't know what they hear.

I honestly don't think i'd try out for American Idol. Not that good ^^ Although being famous does seem fun.... naw... but ya rich and famous. Wouldnt mind that but i dont think i'm willing to pursue something with so little chance or success. Either i'm realistic or perhaps...hnnn....

Any way i reallly laugh if tomorrow rains. It seems every time we plan on going to the park it rains. And we can't decide if God loves me or hates me for it ^^.

Sooo... shall i try out for soldiers? I want to but don't. I just want to sing...

Manipulation... manipulation. Are we more controlled by outside forces than we realize? Do we let others control us because we dont care or are people really that subtle. Normally i'll just go with whatever's happening unless i have a good reason not to. But some people i think i give to much power over me. Oh well.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 07:56 p.m.

Monday, January 19, 2004
Mood: hnnn

Gar... i'm kinda pissed. I'm mad at my mommy. Maybe i'm just hungry. No clue. Joy and i went to see lord of the rings again. You know what? I feel reallly crappy. At least i finished my math homework. I'm really not looking forward to school. And now i'm coughing... but ya... sorry if i'm being a bitch.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 10:06 p.m.

Monday, January 19, 2004
Mood: squirmish

Hnn... well i've been told this before but i've never really understood it. I've never seen it. So now think when i finally do; its kind of scary. Could it be possible that i've been slightly poisened against? But even then i dont think that's the only thing.

This is so trivial. And this is what shows truth. That really does scare me. Could i really have made that much of a mistake? No, it isnt a mistake. *squirm*

I think this marks a change and i'm not sure if i'll be able to see quite the same way. Even when i can't see it, i'll know it's there. I think this may push me in a different direction now.

But that's ok cuz i still have to be me and laugh and smile and joke. This cant change who i am around people... well.. mayb some

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 11:43 a.m.

Sunday, January 18, 2004
Mood: calm

Hey, i just finished Ashuli's book. I finished reading the book and was fully intent on pointing every little disturbing detail out to her. But when you get to the end you realize that Lex and Marina weren't really related. But still... it was a little disturbing. The little problem with incest was gone and apart from that and the "nymph" chapter it wasn't that bad. It makes you think though.

In the story West did make an interesting point.

"Isn't it harder now, that you know you could have?"

Is it better to think that what every you do it wont make a difference or is it truly better to know that you could have? I wonder...

So many things spin through my head and i can't sort them all out. I'd tell some one but that's scary. Anyway for now i suppose that's it.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 5:56 p.m.

Saturday, January 17, 2004
Mood: whatever

Well, today was pretty uneventful. From an anime point of view it was really productive. I watched Fushigi for many hours. You know the part where they needed to find Tamahome's memories. And you know i always thought Hotohori was cool but today i finally realized just how wonderful he is. ^^ And he has prettiful hair! *grin* actually i love all of them. Miaka isnt thaaat bad; i guess i dont dislike her.

It's kind of strange. I actually took a nap this evening. I went to lay down on the couch and fell asleep at around eight. Sorry Emily i think i ditched you. *sweatdrop*

Know what? I'm trying to be more serious *twitch* but i dont know i think smiling is ingrained in me. Well, until i'm mad. Then i dont think i'm that nice.

i think i've changed a lot since the beginning of the year. That's a good think i think ^^

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 11:11 p.m.

Saturday, January 17, 2004
Mood: good

Well, today was actually rather easy. Only a little homework and half of my classes were almost free periods. Hmmm... i was faced with a weird problem during lunch. Originally i wasn't going to get lunch but there was chicken katsu. ^^ So i looked into my wallet to see if i had money and low and behold... i didnt have a small bill. -_-;; so i didnt eat anything.

After school we practiced in the back for a bit. Sorry Matt about your finger ^^;; and toe ^^;; Today was better than usual i think. After that yea went to kendo. The first half of practice was good but the second seemed quite unproductive. I honestly didnt get to practice much. But i do have small blister like things on the bottoms of my feet. Which is a first.

Well, Ashuli gave me a book today called Wasteland. Let me be the first to tell you. It seems really interestingly written. But Ash are you sure that you got all of the hidden meanings in it? Somehow i don't think you did. I'll have to finish the book and tell you. Even Matt said it was ... bad. And this is Matt. If you don't see all of the hidden meanings the book would be pretty good. But i know.. and it's just wrong!!!!!!!!

Wow... life... is .. good. I never really realized it. Yea it is but of course there's still problems but.... i dont think i'd be so happy without them.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 12:11 am

Wednesday, January 14, 2004
Mood: grrr-ish

Grrr... i just got back from kyudo. God! Toshi is such a lemon. And i don't mean the good kind. He bitched through the whole kyudo lesson. I mean some of it i understand but... grrr.... He kept telling me that "if you get hurt then it's your own fault." Ya thas true but God he wouldn't shut up. He even had the gall to tell me "Oh, are you Japanese?" I nodded thinking that he was refering to nationality and he said, "Oh, no you're not. You're American." as if it were horrible!

He's in his sixties so he missed the war. Sooo what did they really fight for then? Cuz if it wasn't to prove loyalty and such then please tell me; i'm sadly disillusioned if it is.

i guess i kind of understand where he's coming from. It's true that i shouldn't smile as much but he doesnt know why i do. 1. My mom smiles just as much and 2. it's stupid people like him. If i didnt smile then i'd be smarting him. As close as i can get to being polite. And it's true that the arrow is dangerous but still. Not only can you get hurt but others too and "his sensei" was teaching me.

But he aslo said some... encouraging things, i suppose. He pointed out that i would be the only local girl shooting. He said i had a "spirit" too. Thas kind of cool.

Even Mizue told me to ignore him. Toshi-san doesnt come to practice and isn't part of the club so what gives him the right to bitch? Mizue's really nice. But i guess i have to change a bit.

With peopole like Toshi around i'm not surprised there are no other girls. He's soo ... urgh...

Maybe next time he calls me "american" i should just give up on whatever "japanese-ness" i have. I should just be American around him. And you know what's funny? I dont think he's really "Japanese" Blunt, confrontational, overly opinionated-- doesn't quite soubnd Japanese to me.

And since i don't know exactly how to deal with him without smiling perhaps i should just attack. Smiling is a defense mechanism. I think without it... i won't let him look down at me. Or perhaps i won't let him intimidate me. And if i have to look down at him so be it. It's his fault. *pout*

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ umm nighttime?

Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Mood: too serious for normal

Can most people really say that they understand how they work? Well if they can then tell me because i would be one of those few who can't. Did that make any sense? I don't understand the real motives behind what i do. I just do them.

It's funny how you can look back at your diary and notice different emotions that you felt then and now you can't. I noticed that. Those feelings that filled me even a few months ago have faded into a kind of blue mist. They're all there but just kind of gray. Tha's kind of cool. Life changes so fast like that.

What you want in life isnt always what's best at the moment. i guess i'll have to wait it out cuz it's never gonna just disappear. And i'm not gonna make it happen and i dont think God's gonna either . ^^

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 10p.m.

Monday January 12, 2004
Mood: hmmm..?

Well, today was just like any other. Except that i have lots of homework. Have you ever thought about the fact that maybe you weren't supposed to live a long time? What if you complete what you're supposed to do and it's time to leave? I guess kyudo made me feel my own mortality. Death should be dealt with more openly ne? Nobody ever talks about death but maybe if we did it wouldn't be such a scary barrier.

I dunno... not that much going on in my head today... but that isn't uncommon ne? I suppose i should think about what i'm going to do with my life. Honestly Candace has no clue. There i go in third person again. But lots of people, it seems, don't know what they're going to do with their lives. Is that bad? Yeah, i think so. Uncertainty is a scary thing.

Hey Mattinu!! I like the name. Not as brave as i thought you were. ^_~ Remember lunch? Lmao! Or maybe i'm just braver than you are.

I wouldn't really..

Hmmmm.... Ed and Roy..... Ed and Roy... I think I wanna wear my pink shirt but my stupid tetanus shot is still red... grrr.... Pink is an awesome color!!! Notice not only is it pretty *nodds* but all of my good friends wear it or wore it ^^
Let's go shopping minna! Shopping is soo fun and we can go get ice cream too if ya guys like....ok well i think i'm getting a little random now..

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 10:26 p.m.

Sunday, January 11, 2004
Mood: Happy happy ^^

Hey!!! Today was super fun! I had to get up early though. The program for the Japanese festival actually started really late. Remember we were supposed to start the whole festival with the ceremony at 8:20?? I don't think we started until like nine. The sun had risen over the rooftops so it was shining directly into our eyes. Ya think that made me nervous? Hell ya! What if Mizue couldn't see the target? The place I was sitting was actually a lot further from the target than the other times so i was much much happier. ^^ Plenty of the kyudo members came which was good and the entire thing went off without a hitch.

Kinda funny though. Aunty said that when we started the ceremony some stupid lady behind her was talking.

Lady: It's soooo slow!

Aunty: *thinking* well duh stupid it's a ceremony.

Apparently all of the people "oooh"-ed and "aah"-ed every time Mizue shot. That must have been something. I couldn't hear it as i was some ninety feet away.

After that i went with Matt to the Go booth. Yup, i played all morning. It was fun!! And Matt no worries I prolly not goin go. ^_~ You can teach me ne? lol The boys teaching me were really funny. They were all arguing about where I should go and stuff when i was playing on the big board. I did a bit better on the little boards, a little. They didn't belive me that i've never really played before... a compliment i guess.

Kenshikan was practicing today for demonstration too. I guess they were ok. Really fast and got points but it didnt look that nice. Supposedly they're our "rival dojo." They emphasize sport rather than art. I had the impression that they were lifting their heads up when they hit. It seems unsafe. It looked like if you lunged at their throats you'd hit and leave some considerable damage. But I dont really know for sure. i'm not the expert.

hmm... now my face is all flushed and my arm (where I got my tetanus shot) is all swollen. It's huge and red. It looks like i got slammed with a baseball. Damn maybe I'm allergic to the vaccine. It must be almost two inches in diameter. I have to go back to the doctors tomorrow so if something's wrong then they can fix it. ^^

Ooo ya! This morning there was a lady playing a bamboo flute. It's really pretty. Maybe mommy will buy me one. The naginata people were there too... I'll learn that later. And there were girls in the red miko costume..I'm soo jealous! I want a red hakama! But i guess i have to be happy that Mizue and Toshi-san are letting me wear the black one now.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 01:49 p.m.

Saturday, January 10, 2004
Mood: Maa.. Maa...

Hmmm... well it's been a few days, ne? I had to get a shot!! *sobbs* Yup, two tetanis (i cant spell that) and chicken pox. My tetanis one is all swollen like a mosquito bite. I don't like sharp objects. Slicing and stabbing i don't like. Can you belive that i actually like twitched when i watched Tomoe cut Kenshin's face? Pathetic.

After that of course being friday there was kendo and i was completely wiped out by that. My body completely lost control over the power to sit up strait. Nothing out of the usual apart from that though.

Yatta! i got a new pink jacket, pink shirt, and partially pink pants!! Yeaaaa!! Pink is an awesome color!

This afternoon we went to the archery range to practice that ceremony thing. i think i got it down. I hope i do. We went through it twice and the fourth arrow Mizue shot actually hit kind of close to me. Honestly i didn't really notice. It actually only took me two steps to reach it so... kind of close. But until Mizue apologized i never noticed. Am i focused or just dense? HAha you can decide.

Hmmm... now i get to do the real ceremony tomorrow morning. At eight in the morning. (which really means: too early in the morning.) And do homework.

And Ash i blame u for this Ed and Roy thing. Ok well I can't really complain but... Ok well... i can't complain at all. I just had to inform you that you're helping to spread the ... joy? Anyway, i guess we're traveling down the road of corruption... hentai-ism.. or whatever you want to call it together. ^^ I must admit guys are awesome ^^

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 06:10 p.m.

Thursday, January 8, 2004
Mood: s'all good

Hmmm.... today was cool. Classes were ok. Japanese was hell boring. Chapel was cool. They gave me a microphone and i got to sing to my hearts content. I must admit that... I was prolly went off key... i couldnt hear myself and it was too high to belt. Must work on control over my head voice. But Matt said i did pretty good so it must not have been tooo bad. Compliments are fun. Any way I slept through Bible... *God forgive me!* and english as always bites.

During bible i was like really tired and we were watching a Jesus movie that we've seen many many times. Ash, Evi, and i were lying on the floor in front of the tv. Sensei turned off the lights so i was like "might as well sleep." So i turned to Evi and told her that if i fell asleep to wake me up but then she told me that she wanted to sleep too. Both of us turned to Ash and told her to wake us up if we fell asleep. I guess i must have though because next thing i knew Ash was waking me up. So horrible.

Any way after school, Rochelle decided to spray Matt with this pretty Victoria Secret body spray thing. My job was to keep him busy so she could spray him. Plan went off without a hitch and Matt then smelled pretty. ^_~ Unluckily for Rochelle Matt also had a weapon-- Axe deodorant!!! *dun dun duun!* i promptly informed Rochelle that she should run and she did. Unlucky for her she smelled like a man after that...

ok well let me leave u with a little something to ponder: "In smallness is greatness" That was on a dove's chocolate wrapper... go figure...

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 5:18 p.m.

1/7/04
Mood: Exhilerated

Wow!!! It's kind of cool! Sunday I'm going to be participating in this new years Kyudo ceremony. The only reason I'm doing it is 1. I was the only one there and 2. there aren't actually thaaat many girls. It was really last minute. The whoever asked Mizue to do the ceremony yesterday and today she asked me and the stuff is in a few days.

My gosh! It was kind of freaky when we were practicing today. My job is to go and take out the arrows and then bring them back so i get to sit right next to the target. Kneeling the whole time will be painful... and not to mention being six or seven feet from the target is a bit unsettling. But when Mizue was shooting it was kinda scary because i have really bad eyes so it really looked like she was aiming at me. ^^ Well no worries Mizue always hits the target. But the feeling of the arrow flying past you is.. pretty intense. A true blink of an eye. I was a bit nervous but I kind of realized that if it was gonna hit me there was absolute no way I'd dodge it so I just sat. And omg! the arrow when i pulled it out!! was hot!!!! *.*

Oooo tomorrow I get to sing in chapel. Which means I get a microphone!!!!! Anyway I had better do homework!

Hey u noticed my date right??? I'm just a retard ^^

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 09:26p.m.

Tuesday, October 23, 2040
Mood: happy

Ok Ash ok!! Look I'm being a good girl and writing in this.

It's... nine forty. We just got back from dinner. Val is super cool. Really outgoing and stuff. I still have to do my homework... and I don't know how becuase i left my stuff at school. Just like me huh? Ok well I'm saved now Matt just told me the assignment. Good job.

Kyudo tomorrow! Yeah. And i get a microphone at chapel on Thursday. THe usual guy is absent so Mr. E is playing for chapel and so I get a microphone! I better start my homework!

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 04:43 a.m.

Tuesday, October 23, 2040
Mood: headachy

Hey! Well today I watched The Last Samurai. It was good!! I had my neighbors take me since i couldn't get in myself. Honestly though Katsu had to die. I was just sitting in my seat thinking that he had to die. If he didn't... well it just wouldn't work. Just like the sakura, ne? Short lived.

I think I have to cry. Tomorrow we have ...dun dun dun... school!!! That sucks. I'm really not looking forward to English. I think this is the first time that I've kept in touch with my friends over break so the last real reason to want to go to back to school is gone.

But you know what? I'll do my best. Honestly I haven't really tried in school for years.

And this is my black year. It's a new year. I am a new person. A new dawn is breaking.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 03:02 a.m.

Monday, October 22, 2040
Mood: Bored

Hmmmm.... well for a start... Let's thank Ashuli for making the pretty layout. ^^

Last night we had the second anime all-nighter in a week. A whole twelve hours of anime. To say the least: Candace was happy.

The horror we'll be back to school. That evil, evil place. It's kind of sad-- I don't know my schedule. So i have two periods to figure it out. To all of my friends out there... do u think I'll still have to suffer with um... a person being in all of my classes? Hope not.

candy glomped fuuma and kamui @ 10:05 p.m.